Sunshine's Journal

Yes, it's been months me and my special 'who took my breath away' doing this long distance relationship. Surabaya, Indonesia - Leeds, United Kingdom is really long way to do this relationship. In total 20 hours by plane, 12225.866 kilometres (based on distance calculator), 6 hours of time differences and i'm so blessed to be with my special man.

"But something happened / For the very first time with you / My heart melts into the ground / Found something true / And everyone's looking around / Thinking i'm going crazy"

Yes, it was an unplanned moment to know you, yeah you know the story baby. It was a nice time to talk and to know you at the first time. We chatted all the time and i remembered when you would reply all chats (yup, after you finish all your work). I deeply falling with all of our 'whatever' conversation that keeps me want to know you more, and so do you. It wasn't a good time to start a new relationship (that was i thought that time), but my heart kept telling me to keep talking and know you better.

Yes, i finally i saw you on that day. 3 days before i moved to Leeds to continue my study. I was so nervous and i didn't know what to do, what to talk to you about. But i tried to stay cool, and at the end you commented that i'm way to 'cool' (i'm really sorry). We spent the 3 days most of them together, i had so much fun to get to know you but also sad that i had to leave the country and also you. I didn't know what to expected with us.

Yes, our relationship is such an unique one. You remember how you need to get into the top of the ship to have a FaceTime with me? remember how you spent your saturday at the mall, you bought kebab then you FaceTime me so we can spent saturday night just like other couples even thou we are miles away. Remember how i surprised you on your b-day but you surprised me first by picked me up from the airport (i was over the moon). When i hurt my feet from basketball practice, you stayed all night to accompany me and calmed me down and told me that i still can walk and watch justin timberlake concert.

But you see now, i'm blessed and over the moon with us. I know long distance relationship is one hell of thing that we must get through, but i believe that we can pass this. I know you and you know me, other don't matter.

Thank you for our 'us' time we've spent these months, thank you for believing in me and understand me even thou you know how i can be a pain in the ass especially on monthly time, thank you for being there for me even thou only from FaceTime, thank you for letting me tell you all of my dreams and being such a good listener, thank you for being a big brother, a best friend and mi amore.

I can't thank God enough of this blessing, keep praying for what best for us
"and i feel your warmth, and it feels like home - Depeche Mode / Here is the House"




I miss you, please be home soon


xoxo- putri

Two months until i move to a big country full of its history, tradition, accent (i really want to have it!). Moving into a big country, alone... there'll be another new journey for me to reach my dreams...
Dreams is something that you have to make it real, it's just comes from your heart, your soul. Keep on believe it and work hard for it. I believe in my dreams, i have many dreams, i have faith in it, keep faith in HIM that someday that dreams will come true...

"A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling thru

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

the dream that you wish will come true"

xoxo

Today, i'm having this really great feeling... un-explained feeling... scared, surprised, happy, the feeling that the last time i felt it it was before my pre under graduated thesis presentation. This morning i woke up with that feeling... you know it's been a long time to feel it, it's just so random feeling i can't explained. 

I met this guy, well actually my mum introduced me with this guy. I'm so glad that GOD is always great, and thank you! I already met this guy couple of times but only just you know a zip, just saying hello then i'm off to talk to another people. I don't know why i felt so different when i met him, because many people try to introduced me with their friends and in the end it just only introducing self. I felt that i found my mood booster (i'm sorry for my cheesy story) and it's been a year i haven't felt this way. 

He went to my house, met my mum and we chatted a lil bit... I was trying to act cool but deep inside my heart i'm so scared if i can't even talk about anything with him. The most awkward time when i asked him 'Do you want chocolate?' twice and 'Do you want to eat?'. Oh my god, i'm so not good at doing this thing... Well then i asked him if he want to drink juice and he said yes. So i went inside to take the juice and also my bag. 





We chatted for some time about his job, my university graduation and my next planned. He also mention about that we used to play together when we were little (so cute, but i don't remember anything... hu..hu..huu...) and he asked if we would like to eat outside and of course i directly said yes!

We ate at the restaurant that he picked, actually i wanted it to go there but i have no one to go with and i can't be bother to go alone. He picked beef teriyaki rice and i picked fried rice ASU (ayam, sosis, udang). It was a really nice lunch, we talk about many thing from his hobbies, his daily activities and mine also. After a nice lunch we went to find a vespa dealer because my dad asked me to find a brochure about vespa so we went there and looked around then back home. 

He dropped me off and then he went back to his home. 
I know this isn't mean anything special for him, but i don't know why i just feel that he is my mood booster and i feel different when i'm around him... is it a crush? or just a feeling? or maybe more than a feeling? 
I don't know, i'm just wishing for a great friendship and who knows what will happen in the future... and thank you for a great couple hours with you <3




xoxo

How do you do? 
Another new blog i guess, yeah the old one... should i say i liked to have a new chapter so should my blog :) 
I hope this would be my last blog, creating my sunshine journey through my life
Sunshine Journal... why? 
Every time i hear the word 'sunshine' the feeling the comes up into my mind is the happy feeling. The 'sunshine' word also makes me to do more inspire thing, more active, more useful not just for me but maybe also for other. 
I hope from my journal, i can share my adventure to you :) 




So, sit back and relax... let me bring you to my sunshine adventure through my sunshine journal


xoxo




*picture all taken from pinterest.com